I Finally Decided to Walk in My Purpose | Living, Learning and Growing with Chi Ilochi #1

I Finally Decided to Walk in My Purpose | Living, Learning and Growing with Chi Ilochi #1

For so many years I’ve used the excuse “I hate being the center of attention.” I never looked at it for what it really was; an excuse. I just saw it as my truth. And the truth being, I didn’t like to be the center of attention. I preferred being lowkey and behind the scenes. Don’t get me wrong, being lowkey isn’t a bad thing, but for me, it became one. I always knew that my talents in singing, writing, and fashion weren’t any where I could put on a mask, and go to work. They called me to be seen, whether I liked it or not. But here’s the catch, my personality at the time wouldn’t allow it.

How the hell could I be the center of attention when I couldn’t even give myself the necessary attention. Like most things in life that are worth working towards, the process isn’t easy. Like people who possess artistic abilities, you are often told, “You’re going to be a huge star one day.” And I must say for me, the sound of those words together made me want to faint. It was almost as if I had a self-fulfilling prophecy attached with a never-ending dilemma. Unfortunately, it was always easy for me to cheer, support, and see the purpose in others, but it was impossible for me to see it in myself, so I thought.

I’ve always found myself asking others, “What is it you see in me?” And I was usually left with the short response, “You’re special, there’s just something about you.”

“Okay, that’s nice and all, but what does that mean?” I would ask myself. Overtime, I became my biggest enemy, not because I didn’t like to be the center of attention but because I felt like I wasn’t worthy of even being it!

And that was just it; worthiness. I’m an advocate of positivity, kindness, and love—and not to toot my own horn, but people love to be around me. I am often told, “It’s your personality, your kindness, your energy. It’s how you make people feel.” Then it hit me, I have talents that require an immense amount of attention; I’ve inspired people, and I’ve yet to even step in my purpose. Imagine, what would happen, imagine, how many lives you would change if only you applied that towards yourself and your talents. In layman’s terms, I’ve experienced unnecessary hard lessons by not walking in my purpose. It’s about time I start walking in it, and see what happens. It was a LONG process, to say the least, I can only compare it to learning how to ride a bike for the first time.

I started off by looking in the mirror and repeating these lines, “You are worthy. You are beautiful. You are talented. You are amazing, and being who you were called to be is your tithe back to the universe.”

I said it every morning after I finished brushing my teeth, and every night. Overtime it became habitual, I would look in the mirror and not even realize I was speaking life over myself. I even took it upon myself and journaled my ideas and seeing them written down on paper made them as real as I’ve always wanted them to be. Persistence. Consistency. Understanding. Determination. I had to keep that in mind if I truly wanted to walk in my purpose, and boy, was I determined to. Not only did I change my perception on self-care and manifestation but I also took things a step further and decided to work towards building my God-given talents.


“It’s not enough to have lived. We should be determined to live for something.” – Winston S. Duke.


I decided to live for myself, and was not disappointed. Life became meaningful again, and being who I was called to be finally felt right. There was no me if I didn’t believe in me, and there wasn’t hope either. Realizing that I’ve been in my own way was a tough pill to swallow. But was worth it. Accepting that helped me be the same person that would get out of my own way. I decided to let go and give it a go, and I can honestly say, it was the best decision of my life.





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